Dying.....

oh my god.. i think i'm dying... stayed up last night lol and now i'm currently in the library and its like what.... 1 plus going to 2 am? lol yeah at least i managed to catch up on my lectures and finish my stats assignments... and with my injured finger lol still hurts when i'm typing and stuff.. but well it doesn't hurt as much as wednesday haha... so much for judo.. but well good to know that kobi learnt something :) well... seriously....i cant remember what her hair smells like anymore.. and her face is slowly becoming blurly... yes although i still think abt the past day in and day out... but well i guess.. i'm just gonna stick to my scars... as a strong reminder.. :) "Someday I`ll learn to love these scars Still fresh from the red-hot blade of your words" (Nightwish - bye bye beautiful) yep....i have to learn to love these scars.. and yes... your words still cut me like a hot blade on my flesh... :) well although i feel like giving up.. but well i'll try and make the best out of my time here... :) although i dont have something to wrk hard for anymore... the least i can do is just make the best out of the situation i'm in.. :) peace out....

what a day...

haiz... what a day indeed... well today was pretty hot and humid... was kinda like any other day.. except for chem lecture.. lol very interesting ^_^ allan knight brought balloons filled with hydrogen to lecture and demonstrated about how reactions take place and he used a match to blow up the balloons... haha luckly i was prepared i knew it was not as worse as seeing and hearing tanks firing but imagine being in an enclosed room... lol i covered my ears haha.. saw a few ppl jumped with the explosion.. hahaha... and yay i finally managed to pump up my essay plan grade to a pass lol happy... :)) got an extension for my essay date also.. so.. off i go and jia you !! lol.. i'll keep u guys posted.. :) oh yah.. there is this question in my mind... shld i stay with my guilt and not hurt ? or shld i just choose 1 ? don want to make the wrong choice.. agcs..etc ????

Water Themepark

omg.. today was great... totally, extremely, wonderfully awesome. kobi, me, chern, and clarisse went to this water theme park today.. omg man.. they had like rides, and wet rides much like last time's fantasy island but with theme park rides... was a bit shy and uneasy with my top off and just my berms but got used to it after a while..haha.. had sunburns and all there was this ride.. called some barrage thing.. omg it was totally insane. spun you round like roasting some hotdogs... made me like want to puke. we rode on some kiddy rides also haha but it was good enough.. went to sit the viking like dunno how many times.. haha there were like those float rides and all used those mats and all of that stuff really like fantasy island... but well all went well till like when we left.. felt a bit emo again tho. like i recalled the times we went swimming together just the 2 of us and haiz.... well that was over.. oh yah after the outing we wanted to eat kfc but we like missed the stop so in the end we went to bull creek for red roosters and we went back after that.. argh flies everywhere all over your face and stuff... all in all i really enjoied my self... THANK YOU GUYS...... :D you all really made my day... aww man.. what would i do without u all man... !! :) really... once again thanks... :))

Fridays..

yes ! fridays again... had my math test 2 today... felt that i did average- below average.. all i can hope for now is that my efforts paid off.. or will pay off... sigh.... wth could not concentrate the whole day... kept thinking abt the past !!! ARGHHHH !!!!! fuk man..... well at least the 2 tests are over.. skipped fdn tut tho... felt that this week was too much for me to handle but at least i passed my chem... it was released yesterday.. kobi said i got a D but who cares ? at least i pass haha..well , its beer time ! so time to chill for tests are over.. an prep for up coming stuff... pray for me guys.. as in pray for my mind.. LOL dunno what i'm talking already.. but yeah.. time to chill... cheers guys... woo hoo ! where's the beer at ? :D mmm~~~... *glug* *glug* ice cold beer... nice~~ heh heh...

Emo again..

What the hell man.... woke up feeling emo all over again. memories just keep flooding my mind.. no mood for anything.... like... wth man... it was wrong ?? the rs was wrong ??? wrong ?? then y did u stick with me for fucking 5 years ? 5 years was wrong ??? i wasn't for me.. the only thing holding me back from you ever again is your parents.. what more can i say ? i would rather die single than ever hurting myself or anyone ever again... its like i want you but i CANT. i'm like RULED not to now.. fuk whats wrong with me man.. i freaking need to study.. fuck ! c'mon dude ! concentrate.. study ok ? kay.. gd... oh yeah.. guys beware of lizards with blue tounges saw one outside my flat today suprisingly its not poisonous.. take care ok guys ? cheers..

Snakes !

yes.. you heared me right.. snakes.. was walking to campus by the back door when i came across a baby snake.. i think it was a brown snake.. so my dear friends better be careful... its spring and the snakes are emerging.... dont want to get bitten by one... yeah.... had my chemistry test today as well.. well it was definitely more tough than the previous one.. i can only now hope i can pass.. a pass will do.. nothing else.. and my stats test on friday... better hope i can make it.. well wish me luck... i better study hard..

Still got the blues for you...

although it has a malay barber shop tune but its a great song..

Gary moore - Still got the blues

Used to be so easy
To give my heart away
But I found that the hard way
There's a price you have to pay
I found out that love is no friend of mine
I should have known time after time

So long
it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you

Used to be so easy
To fall in love again
But I found out the hard way
It's a road that leads to pain
I found that love is more than just a game
Playing to win
But to lose just the same

So long
it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you

So many years since I've seen your face
Within my heart
there's an empty space
Where you used to be

So long
it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you

Oh the days come and go
There is one thing I know
I've still got the blues for you....

fuked day..

yeah... i guess its bout time i should create a blog.. don't know why people want to put up dairy posts online anyway.. i guess its because they need some one to relate to and understand them.. well, its a good way but question is.. how do you know who ? anyway.. yeah.. my post.. woke up this morning, felt shitty as usual, woke up telling myself (as usual) "well, back to reality..." got everything ready and then got out of the house. i forgot about my breakfast though.. was walking by the same track i take to campus and cos' its spring, the flowers are like blooming all over the place i questioned if i should put up a blog yeah and here i am.. well i mean i had other thoughts as well.. like "with so many flowers if only i had some one to enjoy them with me.." and other stuff... well slept through lecture again. and my lab, yes, we were supposed to do titrations right and my freaking burette failed me.. put the knob to parallel, but only drops came out.. freaking hell.. in the end i was like the last to leave.. freaking tired.. went home, had beer to cool myself down and had dinner with my dear friend kobi.. i cooked some tori katsudon thing while he cooked rice.. it was great.. and yeah.. tomorrow i have a chem test.. yeah so....... wish me all the best. hope that i feel good abt it. and yeah.. i guess see you tomorrow... :) (haiz.... if only my blog was read by the intended person)